This hunger is unbearable. My stomach aches, that other heart, not my heart, that other being keeps at bay, it wants to feed, but I don't want to. I want to hold on. If that useless man who I found cannot come with what I want, then I will have to do it on my own. I hated that, to do that, and he knows that, so Hakan you better pull through, you better not screw up, like you did in Vaxjo.
But this town will be all right for a bit, these people are cold like this town, I liked what I saw, no one looks, no one cares, they all go about their business, soon they will see what I will bring to them.
The night is tranquil, only snow, and some silence, this town is lifeless. I don't wonder about the day, I did before, that was the last time I cried, when I knew I would not see the sun, the brilliant sun that reminded me of my family....
I am outside, if there is a reason is because I get bored, I become restless, this of being what I am, there is a lot of time to waste, a lot of thinking, a lot of nothing to do, a lot of time that I cannot used, I try to do different things,but when you get to lived my life. There is no magic cure for it. Things are what they are...
